Tinnitus - An everyday struggle
After some time has passed... the waiting seems pointless... you hear things like, 'It may be that you just need more time to heal.' They mean it to sound hopeful but there's a tone in their voice that tells you... they haven't got a clue as to why you now have tinnitus and hyperacusis...
They sympathize with your pain, frustration and the difficulties of the demands on you... They've got the routine of it all down pat...
They look you in the eyes.
Tell you to take notice of what causes it to be more extreme
What helps ease the pain
They encourage you to find new ways of coping
With all the money they make you'd think a doctor could heal...
Sleep is an issue for me.... it's like napping... an hour here... two hours there... I use to take pride in a good nights sleep... waking ready to take on the world... welcoming a new day.... however when I have to welcome a new day at 2:00 a.m. in the morning because I'm awaken by the tinnitus (the ringing in my ears) so loud... the welcome is to quickly escape it once more...
It's been 7 months and 13 days from the date of my surgery.... after the initial shock of it all... I'm still learning to cope... I have learned the more I keep my mind busy
(son of a .....) Pain.... just then on the streets below... a police car turned on their siren...
To most it's not given a second thought... but for me... 'it sends pain shooting threw my ears...'
I know I can't block out the world or make every painful sound go away.. but I
All we can do is pray... pray that another sound is not heard which will drop us to our knees...
(Give me a moment)...
continued....
After the initial shock of it all... I'm still learning to cope... what I have learned for me... keeping my mind busy helps with the tinnitus... it doesn't stop it... but it helps...
It's hard to explain to people what it's like to be working and dealing with this... but it can be done... in fact I highly recommend one works... You see... forcing the mind to work helps lesson the severity of tinnitus crippling grip... your mind slowly begins to block it out... still there... still heard... but your thoughts are what comes to the fore front of the mind...
It takes a lot of will power... concentration... self control... hear the ringing.. all the surrounding sounds...plus people talking to you.
It helps to read their lips..it tells the mind when you look at the lips that, that is the important sound....
For people with tinnitus sound is broken into level of importance... I don't have the strength to yet block it all out all together... maybe never will.. But one things from my past experience is the mind is a powerful thing... I recommend if you have never meditated to do so...
You see it is my goal and hope to train my mind what is an important sound and what is not... with my years of experience working security observation was key; to see and hear...
My theory is: That I can train my mind to understand the ringing is not an important sound to hear.... the person in front of me talking is..
Like I said, 'I can't stop the ringing but looking at the lips and focusing all my attention on what is being said helps.'
However this is exhausting... and can be very overwhelming... it can cause headaches, frustration and one to be unsocial... there are days that others see I'm not talking as much or I'm working more independently and they realize it's a day the tinnitus is worse... on a good day it's discomforting and annoying on a bad day I just can't concentrate or hear clearly.. I pick up every other word...
Each day is a new challenge....
We all have our place in the world... stay positive... and focus on making your life yours again....
They sympathize with your pain, frustration and the difficulties of the demands on you... They've got the routine of it all down pat...
They look you in the eyes.
Tell you to take notice of what causes it to be more extreme
What helps ease the pain
They encourage you to find new ways of coping
With all the money they make you'd think a doctor could heal...
Sleep is an issue for me.... it's like napping... an hour here... two hours there... I use to take pride in a good nights sleep... waking ready to take on the world... welcoming a new day.... however when I have to welcome a new day at 2:00 a.m. in the morning because I'm awaken by the tinnitus (the ringing in my ears) so loud... the welcome is to quickly escape it once more...
It's been 7 months and 13 days from the date of my surgery.... after the initial shock of it all... I'm still learning to cope... I have learned the more I keep my mind busy
(son of a .....) Pain.... just then on the streets below... a police car turned on their siren...
To most it's not given a second thought... but for me... 'it sends pain shooting threw my ears...'
I know I can't block out the world or make every painful sound go away.. but I
' I wish the world would hear our voices and know that we are many... we are crippled by the pain of which the world causes us... brought to tears and weep from a great pain that we can not escape all caused by a simple sound...'
All we can do is pray... pray that another sound is not heard which will drop us to our knees...
(Give me a moment)...
continued....
After the initial shock of it all... I'm still learning to cope... what I have learned for me... keeping my mind busy helps with the tinnitus... it doesn't stop it... but it helps...
It's hard to explain to people what it's like to be working and dealing with this... but it can be done... in fact I highly recommend one works... You see... forcing the mind to work helps lesson the severity of tinnitus crippling grip... your mind slowly begins to block it out... still there... still heard... but your thoughts are what comes to the fore front of the mind...
It takes a lot of will power... concentration... self control... hear the ringing.. all the surrounding sounds...plus people talking to you.
It helps to read their lips..it tells the mind when you look at the lips that, that is the important sound....
For people with tinnitus sound is broken into level of importance... I don't have the strength to yet block it all out all together... maybe never will.. But one things from my past experience is the mind is a powerful thing... I recommend if you have never meditated to do so...
You see it is my goal and hope to train my mind what is an important sound and what is not... with my years of experience working security observation was key; to see and hear...
My theory is: That I can train my mind to understand the ringing is not an important sound to hear.... the person in front of me talking is..
Like I said, 'I can't stop the ringing but looking at the lips and focusing all my attention on what is being said helps.'
However this is exhausting... and can be very overwhelming... it can cause headaches, frustration and one to be unsocial... there are days that others see I'm not talking as much or I'm working more independently and they realize it's a day the tinnitus is worse... on a good day it's discomforting and annoying on a bad day I just can't concentrate or hear clearly.. I pick up every other word...
Each day is a new challenge....
We all have our place in the world... stay positive... and focus on making your life yours again....
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